I hope the owner of this picture won't take this down, this is me disclaiming ownership of this photo over here while thinking how working from home has helped me to see things I never have time to think of lately.
HI! It has been a really long time since my last post here. Teaching + Fellow life is really intense and quoting 'the road less travelled', I am positive this experience will bring so much into my personal development in many aspects.
I haven't been able to blog as much due to the commitments that I am currently obliged to as evidenced by blog updates only on my out-of-work / work-from-home dates. I have successfully finished my Postgraduate Diploma earning 'Cemerlang' in practicum which I am very proud of. Unfortunately, second wave of Covid-19 hits and now I am stuck at home. Only this time, alone, away from my family.
Despite the fact that I have to level up my 'adulting' game to take care of myself, I think it has been a blessing in disguise for me. I only have about 62 days left until the last day of school and I haven't really think of what am I going to do next. What I am trying to say is that this quarantined lifestyle has enabled me to do a lot of self-reflect. Well, obviously I have more time to daydream / reflect on my current life.
The quarter-life crisis hits
My senior collab who is now a TFM Alumni has always been part of my support system. She has helped me get through my vulnerable year and I can say that I wouldn't be able to discover this newfound self if it wasn't because of her. But what I always remember was her saying "Your 25 will be more difficult and challenging, it's one of those time when you have to think and reflect a lot to make careful decisions." True enough, 25 hits real hard when I realize I should have the answer to deciding my life. Who am I, really?
Rediscovering my passion
I have always called myself as someone who loves to inspire. It's part of being a leader not only for others, but also for myself. The MCO(s) has really helped me to pause and actually do more for my sake. I realized that working has been something that I woke up to do rather that the reason I wake up everyday. I began to pick up my old books where I passionately talk about helping others making better choices for their health. I was reading all my nutrition and dietetic books! That was how I brought myself back to the time where I stand in front of the lecture attendees answering "Where I want to be in the next 10 years?"
Strive to do more
My first year of teaching has been a crazy roller coaster of emotions. A lot has happened and all these were (in a way) hindering me from doing more. The time I spent during MCO / TEMCO has allowed me to effectively teach while putting the same effort in my own personal and well-being matters. I am confident that I have made the right decision to take a break from working after this Teaching Fellowship ends. This girl really needs time for more self-reflect and building up from knowing her own self before deciding her next milestone.
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I have a lot on my mind right now. A cluster of thoughts, emotions and questions from all my self-reflection centered among these 3 main themes. The TEMCO is extended until October 26th as of date. Nevertheless, one advice that I would frequently echo to myself is to "take one step at a time".
Now that I successfully conquered my PgDip. in Education (TESL), I am aiming to achieve at least C1 for the upcoming CEFR Readiness Test for English teachers.
To end this post, all the best to all teachers taking the test this year!
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